Twice as much time has passed since the last post. I have fully realized after the conversation tonight that what is done is done. There is no going back and there will never be anything again. Let me reiterate a few things for the record:
1. I loved her more than anything else in my life. I would have given up my art, my motorcycle, my everything for her if that's what was asked of me. There was nothing I had that I was not willing to give.
2. I tried my best at this one. Just like the last serious relationship, I did everything I knew of to make this one work. I am not a perfect person, and I'm the first to admit my own faults, but there is not one person that can tell me with absolute sincerity that I didn't do my utmost.
3. I was no bad-guy. I have no idea how a man should treat a woman. All I have is my own split parents to look at and no clue how I should act. I may not have been perfect, but one thing is for certain. This is that I treated you the best that I knew how.
And you know what? Everything I did, or didn't do, or worked for, or tried so hard at, in the end means nothing. I have less than what I started with. Sure I have what I learned about relationships and women and all that, but all the time and effort and money I put into this relationship means nothing anymore. There is nothing left of us, but I can't bring myself to get over it. Through our entire relationship, I have never been able to see myself with anyone else, nor have I seen her with anyone else.
The thought of us not lasting forever never even crossed my mind.
This post is missing something...
Oh yeah.
FUCK.
1. I loved her more than anything else in my life. I would have given up my art, my motorcycle, my everything for her if that's what was asked of me. There was nothing I had that I was not willing to give.
2. I tried my best at this one. Just like the last serious relationship, I did everything I knew of to make this one work. I am not a perfect person, and I'm the first to admit my own faults, but there is not one person that can tell me with absolute sincerity that I didn't do my utmost.
3. I was no bad-guy. I have no idea how a man should treat a woman. All I have is my own split parents to look at and no clue how I should act. I may not have been perfect, but one thing is for certain. This is that I treated you the best that I knew how.
And you know what? Everything I did, or didn't do, or worked for, or tried so hard at, in the end means nothing. I have less than what I started with. Sure I have what I learned about relationships and women and all that, but all the time and effort and money I put into this relationship means nothing anymore. There is nothing left of us, but I can't bring myself to get over it. Through our entire relationship, I have never been able to see myself with anyone else, nor have I seen her with anyone else.
The thought of us not lasting forever never even crossed my mind.
This post is missing something...
Oh yeah.
FUCK.
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