New work up on DA.

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wow. I just did the craziest thing of my life. I can't believe I got away with it.

All I can say is, I'm gonna have to stay off the bike for a few days...

UPDATE.

I have absolutely nothing to say. Met some nice people recently, hoping a few will call me back...

Anyways, looking good on the bike too. I can pull it up now basically whenever I feel like it, and I can ride a wheelie out now pretty well. I'm not going too crazy with the throttle (don't want another episode like last year) but its fun to crank it out and ride out a big ass wheelie. Makes me feel dangerous. :) I'm loving a few choice roads around here too. Hard, 90-degree banked corners posted at 20 that I can burn through hanging off, dragging a knee, at like 60-70 plus. Never fails to give me a good smile. Endos are a bit harder to do, also because I don't want to burn through my brakes.

But yeah, back to the people. Lindsey leaves for California on Friday. Still not really sure how I feel. I know I'm pretty much over everything, but I still find myself thinking about her alot. Oh well. I'll keep up the distracting myself with meeting other people, and sooner or later I won't have to, because I'll just have forgotten all about it. I was really hoping this girl named Tara would call me today, but she didn't. I'm going to ask either her or Amie to come with me to the E-town fair on Thursday. The girl that works at Barnes and Noble, Jenna, seemed to be really cool too, but she seems to have more than enough problems in her life for both of us.

Ah well. Not that it makes any difference, because I'm not looking for a girlfriend anyways. ;)

Alright. I've got my shit together now. No more of these worthless posts about how great things used to be and how much I want things to go back. Due to a few intriguing occurances, I'm about 8 years smarter than I was 2 weeks ago. If any one of you catches me feeling sorry for myself again, I give you full permission to punch me straight in the face.

In other news....

Birthday yesterday, had tons of fun, one of the best nights of my life.
Went out to Low Places with Dan, had a good old time there with all the pretty ladies. Went to Applebee's afterwards and figured out I was in high demand. ;) I guess the cool thing to do is after you're done at Low Places, you go to Applebee's. Got an invite to sit at a table by myself with 3 ladies and ended up hanging with them for the rest of the night. One of them is for damn sure going to get a call back. Got more numbers last night than I have in the last month and a half, gave 2 rides on the bike, and already had one girl call me back to hang out today. :D

So yeah, good times and only looking to get better.

Hey guys, this is Joe, Kyle's partner in crime and life annoyance.

I thought you all might find this funny, sort of a break from the doom and gloom floating about the blog.

Enjoy.

I feel absolutely lost. Nothing I do has any meaning, I don't care about anything in my life save for maybe 3 things, people included. Of the 2 people outside of my family I really care about, one of them can't stand me anymore, and the other one tells me its no big deal and to move the hell onward.


Why can't stuff just go well for once?

Why can't shit just fix itself and things go back to the way they were? Every time I try to show a little affection, I get shut down worse than the time before. I do little "nice" things here and there and try to be friendly, and every time I get a cold shoulder.

I'm going to speak to you directly here. The problem isn't that we couldn't last. The problem is that you are leaving in 2 weeks and you don't want to have to worry about me while your gone. You'll go out to California and find some good looking guy out there and you'll think to yourself, "Why would I want to be true to someone I hardly see, when I can be in this guy's arms right now?" You don't want to accept the fact that here is a guy right fucking here who cares more about you than life itself. I would go to the ends of the earth for you, and every chance you get, you throw it back in my face. You're more than welcome to have given up on me. I'll tell you straight though, I have not given up on you, or on us. No amount of telling me that its useless is going to make me think any differently.

I've so far kept myself from becoming the desperate, bitter ex that I'm afraid of turning in to. I don't want to be a wuss about things, but I'm telling you, I will never take you for granted again. I can't believe I didn't show you I loved you more when we were together. I'm kicking myself every day for not being the best man you could have.


All in all, its just hard to have 2 weeks before I watch the girl of my dreams walk away and leave forever.

Shame, such a shame
I think I kind of lost myself again
Day, yesterday
Really should be leaving but I stay

Say, say my name
I need a little love to ease the pain
I need a little love to ease the pain
It's easy to remember when it came

'Cause it feels like I've been
I've been here before
You are not my savior
But I still don't go

Feels like something
That I've done before
I could fake it
But I still want more

Fade, made to fade
Passion's overrated anyway
Say, say my name
I need a little love to ease the pain
I need a little love to ease the pain
It's easy to remember when it came

'Cause it feels like I've been
I've been here before
You are not my savior
But I still don't go, oh

I feel live something
That I've done before
I could fake it
But I still want more, oh

This was originally intended to be another ranting, distressed, borderline violent post, but now....


fuck it.