why?

why are my emotions in a spiral? I've done so much to try and rid myself of them, and then at the worst time they all come back. Just found out a friend of mine is pregnant. Not by me at any means, but still. To say I was surprised would be an understatement. I don't know what the hell I'm doing with Blair. She's freakin awesome, but I wonder how much my excitement about having a girlfriend again got in the way of my judgement. No matter how hard I try, I guess I can't rid myself of emotion all the time.

I picked up a CD by Dope, called "Felons and Revolutionaries". Great CD, its all about hating the government and guns are cool, and it even has a drawing of an emaciated Uncle Sam with a machine gun on the album liner. Very hard rock, but its almost got a little bit of Rob Zombie-esque techno in some tracks too. Very good stuff.

I'm home from school sick today, and I'm kinda just pissed. Not really at anything in particular, but people in general (expecially one we call "mom") are just angering me today.